It is only when I wake from my slumber that I realize I am still entwined in your poisoned embrace. It is the pain you so vivaciously lavish upon me which brings me from the depths of my dreams into subconsciousness and finally into the stark reality of your omnipotent occupation in my life.
     Your arms and legs circle around me like thorny vines, burrowing into my skin, planting yourself into each nerve cell and sprouting seedlings of jagged knives and white-hot spears which explode like unadulterated fireworks the moment I try to move. You chuckle lazily and whisper to me, "You know the sounds between pleasure and pain are often indistinguishable. Your pain equals my pleasure. You know I'm here to let you know that you're still alive."
     I can only allow myself a brief moment before I must force myself to sit up because I feel you slowly spiraling up my spine, trying to keep me immobile. I know I must move before your grip becomes even stronger or I may not be able to move at all.  I grit my teeth and force myself up and onto my feet. The agony I feel as I try to steady myself causes you to smile even wider, flashing your fangs and licking your cold, dry lips. You know the pain is exquisite and I can do nothing but live through the experience each day I wake. You are a relentless bastard of a beast! Damn you to hell!
     As I finally make it to my chair after shuffling through the house I know some relief will come within the next two hours. I swallow the pills that will tame your temper within me... that will allow me to function as a real human being. You never completely leave though, you are always there... needling and cramping my muscles, inflaming my joints, clawing your way throughout me body. If you would just leave me alone for one day! Oh, what a GLORIOUS day that would be, indeed!
     You have weakened my body and my immune system. You have weakened my spirit. You have caused me to miss a lot of time with my family and friends. You have cost me time away from jobs and now you even limit the types of jobs I can perform! You have cost me opportunities. You are a THIEF.
     You have cost me LIFE as I once knew it!
      I ABHOR YOU!